December 9, 2006
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Fearless Moral Inventory
This is what I’m all about right now. I don’t want help from anyone, except maybe Sarah McLachlan. I want to think long and hard, be honest with myself about any defects of character. The only way out is through. If I could retreat to some ruddy shack near Walden Pond, Thoreau it up for a while, I’m sure I could come out a better man. Slightly more eccentric, perhaps, but better.Old school academics, who had no such options, often turned to opiates and/or absynthe to achieve this sense of enlightenment. For myself, however, a moral inventory without the necessity of rehab is most optimal. My spirit might thank me, but my kidneys surely wouldn’t.
The thing is this: what will those last few seconds of life contain, be they lucid? A frantic, gasping, “What have I done with my life!” moment, or a peaceful, fading away, “All is well because I’ve done well!” moment? Aside from any eternal ramifications of lifestyle, a healthy perspective/demeanor can really enhance the enjoyment of life on earth. Partying is fun, but reality is better. Drugs can feel good, but a clear mind superior. Retreat is easy, but confrontation is more productive.
Ahh, just some musings. Happy Birthday, Virginia…just in case I forget to email! I love you.
~Andrew
Comments (5)
Hey, if you decide to go the way of the absynthe, I know a man who can hook you up.
Good post. I’m in favor of “Thoreau-ing it up.” Haha.
This reminded me of what I just read in Stephen King’s “On Writing.” Well, the realizing-that-trying-to-think-better-with-drugs-is-just-ridiculous part. Good luck taking inventory.
We all have defects of character. The important thing is what we make of them. If I may be so bold; I think I know you as well as any and better than most and you’re a pretty smart fella. I am sure you already know what your own particular defects are.
Enlightenment is a noble thing to aspire to but make sure it’s your own that you seek and not that of others. You can only be the best you that you can be. Others have to be the same for themselves. The only thing you owe to others is the truth, defects and all and if their own defects aren’t too much for them then they will honour you with the same.
If you do decide to seek a higher plane through Absynthe let me know. I have a new spoon for the ceremony.
Jeez. What is this cult of absinth?
At least you’re posting again.
If you do Thoreau it up, make sure the cabin has Internet access.
I was going to attempt some kind of Thoreau/thorough pun, but… no.
p.s. Your beard sucks.
This post is not what i needed to read after spending my morning in bed watching american beauty and dead poets society. but i miss you drew. hope you are well.